The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably)
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Lorne-Kates said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
DOXXED!
Pretty sure he mentioned his name before...
Besides, I never got any free pizzas when my full address and name were doxxed, so why should he be special?!
Hey, I totally missed that! Mind doxxing yourself to me on priv?
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@kt_ said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Lorne-Kates said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
DOXXED!
Pretty sure he mentioned his name before...
Besides, I never got any free pizzas when my full address and name were doxxed, so why should he be special?!
Hey, I totally missed that! Mind doxxing yourself to me on priv?
Just whois me. It's not hard....
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@kt_ said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
Hey, I totally missed that! Mind doxxing yourself to me on priv?
{sends pic of dick on wooden table}
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
Just whois me. It's not hard....
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@Onyx said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@error Voight-Pizza test?
Maybe the Bechamel test, for those who aren't into tomato sauce.
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@ScholRLEA said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Onyx said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@error Voight-Pizza test?
Maybe the Bechamel test, for those who aren't into tomato sauce.
Two named vegetarian toppings, on an entree together, discussion something other than meat or pizza.
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@bb36e said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
Just whois me. It's not hard....
Was I being too subtle?
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@Lorne-Kates said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@kt_ said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
Hey, I totally missed that! Mind doxxing yourself to me on priv?
{sends pic of dick on wooden table}
???
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Recipe for Guacamole , serves me right
I originally posted this almost two years ago the apparently defunct discussion board for the web serial 'The Saga Of Tuck'. The series is about an intersexed teen who is bi-gendered (and bisexual) and living something of a double life, and discussions of TG issues come up there in general. I do request that any flameage get redirected to the thread.
A brief glossary follows the TMI.
While I have never been closeted about my sexual orientation, I am finding - to paraphrase Tuck - that gender issues are a lot more complicated than homosexuality. At least for me they are. But at least now I am talking about them, both to my therapist and to my family. So far, I have been and remain fortunate to be as accepted as I have been, but that doesn't help the confusion.
For years I have played with the idea that I am genderqueer. I certainly have never been comfortable in my skin, feeling like a passenger in a vehicle someone else - someone completely nuts - is in control of. I hate my body, and not just because - as most people assume - I weigh in excess of 450 pounds. Even when I was thin - yes, there was a time I was thin, even I tend to forget that - I hated my body just as passionately. Corporeal existence itself seems a curse to me.
I know, without question, that I don't feel male - that the role I am playing is an act, and one I feel certain everyone is seeing through, at that. Yet I can't seem to stop playing it, being to afraid to find an alternative.
I've never felt female, either, though; at least, I don't think I have. I wouldn't know a thing about being female in our society.
Gender roles, on the whole, are a black box to me.
And yet... there's always been a part of me that has wanted to experiment with being female. I don't really think it would be 'really' me any more than being Joseph is, or even being Jay (which I see as two different roles, the latter being at least closer to who I 'really am'), but somehow, I have this itch that I can't seem to scratch. I'm not sure I could with anything less than a TFD, a la El Goonish Shive or Umlaut House.
I certainly don't fetishize clothing - in fact, I hate clothing of all kinds, especially men's business and formal attire, and I am a naturist by habit, at least when I am alone, and except for having funny pictures on t-shirts, I find dressing for anything other than comfort and protection meaningless. Or so I always thought; but if that's so true, why is the idea of trying to dress 'as a woman' so frightening and yet appealing to me?
If I could, I would change back and forth at will, but I think, somehow, that the female is closer to the real me than the male. Does that make me bi-gendered? Perhaps, but again, the social roles are a closed book to me, I just don't understand them.
What makes this complicated is that there is a definite streak of autogynephilia in the mix as well, a fetishizing of taking female form physically. It's an embarrassing thing to admit, but most of my sexual fantasies do involve me as a female, usually with another female but often with a male. My fantasy life is a very mixed up thing, though, and that's maybe 75% of the time; the other times, either I am a male (not necessarily my own body), or I am simply observing from the outside, not participating at all. Despite what that idiot Blanchard (or whatever his name is) may think, though, it is clear to me that this is a separate issue from my gender confusion. The gender role is the important factor, and most of the time, I feel as if I want to reject both of the commonly accepted roles entirely.
I don't even know what to call myself. Genderqueer? Androgyne? Bi-gender? None of the above? Or am I simply transgendered and in denial? I honestly, truly do not know, and that is what really scares me most of all.
I often said, when I first came out about my sexuality, that I knew from that start that the question wasn't either/or for me, but both/neither. It turned out to be both. But for gender, it seems even more complex, and harder to pin down. I have no idea where this is going to take me, and I am afraid.
genderqueer - the state of being neither male nor female, genderwise
androgyne - a synonym for genderqueer, but emphasizing physical androgyny
bi-gender - the state of being both male and female, or of vacillating between the two.
autogynephilia - sexual fetishization of femininity in oneself
TFD - transformation device, a fictional device that can magically alter one's sex
El Goonish Shive - a webcomic featuring gender-bending with a TFD, http://egscomics.com
Umlaut House - a similiar webcomic, http://www.maskedretriever.com/uh2/
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@ScholRLEA said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
Gender roles, on the whole, are a black box to me.
Nods.
@ScholRLEA said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I find dressing for anything other than comfort and protection meaningless
Nods.
@ScholRLEA said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I often said, when I first came out about my sexuality, that I knew from that start that the question wasn't either/or for me, but both/neither. It turned out to be both. But for gender, it seems even more complex, and harder to pin down. I have no idea where this is going to take me
Nods.
I appreciate both, but don't place either on any kind of pedestal higher or lower than the other. Each has their attributes and roles to play, whether defined by society or self.
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@ScholRLEA said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I don't even know what to call myself. Genderqueer? Androgyne? Bi-gender? None of the above? Or am I simply transgendered and in denial? I honestly, truly do not know, and that is what really scares me most of all.
Why do you feel the need to label it?
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@Jaloopa Labels can be a way of understanding, and of saying "I am not alone, there are other people like this". They can be limiting, but also freeing.
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@Yamikuronue I get that, but there comes a point when you're getting so much angst from trying to pin down exactly which sub-sub-sub genre your personality falls under that it's essentially putting yourself in a collection of one.
I dunno, my own neurosis got me as far as "I'm a unique weirdo, just like everyone else" and stopped there
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@Jaloopa None of those words are a category of one, though. Since this is the overshare thread, I'll confess I've had the exact same problem. I settled on "genderqueer" because it's the broadest category so it's sure to apply; it basically means "my gender is weird ya'll". I'm... reasonably sure I'm not trans. I feel like if I was trans, I'd know it. Sometimes I like being a girl, I just utterly fail at it. It doesn't feel natural to perform a female gender, or a male one; whatever I am, it doesn't quite fit anywhere.
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@Yamikuronue said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
None of those words are a category of one, though
Yeah, that was a kind of "this is what might happen if you keep going down that route" thing.
@Yamikuronue said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
It doesn't feel natural to perform a female gender, or a male one
This whole struggle is kind of alien to me. I wouldn't say I feel like a man, I certainly don't perform like one. I'm just me. I don't have any issue with being called a man or perceived as one but it's not really a defining part of me IMO.
I suppose it's the privilege of fitting the societal norm well enough that I just don't think about it, kind of like how although I'm probably not 100% straight I'm close enough that I've never had to struggle with any gay feelings
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@Jaloopa It's more like...
I look around at the women at work and I see nothing that resembles me. I look at the men and I see a lot more resemblance. Women are this weird alien species to me, but men I understand, and fit in with. Except that I like dresses, like, a lot, and I love my corset, and I love my boobs, and I don't feel like my body is wrong per se, just... I don't have anything in common with other people who share my body. I feel like I'm faking it all the time. But it's not my body that's wrong, it's my gender. You know?
I generally decided my gender is like a tomboy but replace the sports with geek.
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I'm kinda getting the feeling people might be bothering with labels too much...
@Jaloopa said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I'm just me.
There ya go, do that one, that one is good. Ignore the assholes who don't respect it, and avoid being an asshole to anyone who gets something wrong if it's not intentional.
There's some stuff about me I don't know how I'd classify. And you know what, I'm not bothered by it. I'm just another weird ape and I'm making the most I can out of it. Anyone who has a problem with that, well, they can kiss my ass, even if that makes me gay if I enjoy it.
Just my .2 units of undisclosed denomination ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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@Onyx It's kind of like being diagnosed. When my doctors told me I had fibromyalgia, it gave me a word to research, and so much about my life makes sense. Now I can say "lol it's just fibro" and carry on with my day, secure that I know what's happening and it's under control.
Ditto for liking girls: That's just me being bi, nothing wrong with that. Ditto with fantasizing about being a man: I'm just genderqueer, there's nothing wrong with me. Having a panic attack in a train station, though, that's something unusual and wrong and I should probably see someone about it one of these days.
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@Yamikuronue There's a big difference of scale in some of the things you mentioned is my point. I just sometimes feel we're all (collectively, as a species) trying to compartmentalize things just a tad too much.
Not that I'm going to stop you, if it makes you more secure or feel better about yourself, hey, go for it. I just don't like this sinking feeling that trying to make all these minute quirks in our psychologies into distinct categories is detracting from the things that make us all the same. Of which the most common thing probably is that we all are "weirdos", in one way or another.
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@Yamikuronue said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
Sometimes I like being a girl, I just utterly fail at it.
That sounds ... normal and I mean that in the most positive way possible.
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I haven't had any critical containment incidents since childhood, but I've had more than a few near misses where containment breached after the covering removal procedure but before complete mating with the disposal fixture.
Edit: God dammit , how can you topic drift a poop thread? Now I look like an ass for tldring
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@Weng said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
mating with the disposal fixture
Also, if you're referring to one of these, I would strongly recommend against trying it:
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@Weng said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
how can you topic drift a poop thread?
Just be glad nobody started any poop flinging
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@Weng said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I haven't had any critical containment incidents since childhood, but I've had more than a few near misses where containment breached after the covering removal procedure but before complete mating with the disposal fixture
Especially funny after the talk about corsets.
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@Lorne-Kates said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Weng said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I haven't had any critical containment incidents since childhood, but I've had more than a few near misses where containment breached after the covering removal procedure but before complete mating with the disposal fixture
Especially funny after the talk about corsets.
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Status: Someone reminded me of this thread. So, let's unearth it!
I'm seriously pondering how to find someone who enjoys blackhead extraction on the cheap...
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@Tsaukpaetra Ask my mom. She tends to enjoy doing it.
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@Atazhaia said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra Ask my mom. She tends to enjoy doing it.
But... travel!
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Atazhaia said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra Ask my mom. She tends to enjoy doing it.
But... travel!
[insert massively inapproptiate joke about tsaukpaetra, Atazhaia's mother, and unspecified events of last night here]
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@Vixen said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
insert
[ joke goes here]
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@lolwhat FYI: pizzapizza has grown to the point that they have FIVE www domains, at least.
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Ask my mom. She tends to enjoy doing it.
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status: I don't think I ate anything unusual, but my defecation sure thinks I did something wrong!
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Status: interesting how much more noticeable your nose is when it's got a (what appears to be) big ol' hole drooling blood...
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@Tsaukpaetra That happens to me sometimes. I don't know whether it's just dry air, or I have really surface-level blood vessels or something, but occasionally (more so in the hotter months) I'll get a massive nosebleed out of nowhere.
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@e4tmyl33t Are you sure that's not caused by women and/or men wearing less and/or more revealing clothing during the hotter months?
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@Atazhaia Certain. There's usually nobody at my workplace that would drive such a reaction. Helpdesks suck.
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Status: was concerned, but then remembered I had eaten red colored Jello yesterday.
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Status: Goddammit. Sneezed, and bad stuff came out the wrong end. Now I smell like shit because apparently I'm the opposite of constipated.
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I'm the opposite of constipated
status: what the fuck did I eat that's causing all this?!?
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I'm the opposite of constipated
status: what the fuck did I eat that's causing all this?!?
And now the opposite is happening. Can there not be a happy medium? For fucks sake, bowels!
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
For fucks sake
that could contribute to your issue
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status: contemplating this subdermal mass I've discovered in my left armpit. It hurts to squeeze but otherwise is unnoticeable besides the bump.
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@Tsaukpaetra That's your lymph node. You have some sort of illness, and that's the staging area for your body to fight it.
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@TwelveBaud said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
You have some sort of illness
That's not news, tbh...
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@Tsaukpaetra
Not mental this time
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@Luhmann said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra
Not mental this timeWe'll see. I bake myself every day so I guess I wouldn't detect an over temperature state as easily...
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@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I bake myself every day
That's a euphemism, right?
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@Luhmann said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
@Tsaukpaetra said in The 'Nobody Overshares Worse Than This!' thread (NSFW, probably):
I bake myself every day
That's a euphemism, right?
Do you consider being exposed the the radiation of the sun for ~25 minutes twice a day in 106+ degree F ambient baking?